||[Jun. 3rd, 2008|07:18 pm]
Things started this week for the internship. Yesterday was the orientation. 600 around the country. 200 ppl were there. For finance, tech, and operations. Super fun. Not. I thought it would be better. I guess it depends on ur personality. I need to be more outgoing. Ugh. There was so many icebreaker deal games. One about bingo in which we had to fill in the boxes by asking people in the room if they can apply. Some examples were who has a twin, who is left handed and some question about the company. Fun stuff! It was actually a pretty interesting concept. Then we learned more about the company. Then we played a kind of monopoly game style game to see who knows most about the company. We had to get into groups of six and i kinda had to get stuck with the outsiders with 3 other peeps. Ugh again. I can't believe how hard it is for me to fit in. It sucks major buttocks. I need to take initiative with this bs man.
After the game was lunch. I stayed with the outsider girl with me. Well she kinda followed me so I didn't mind. She's 22 but looks a lot older and is my height which is pretty good in a sense. I don't know if I'll see her,hopefully i do. The next game we played got into groups and we had to play cards we call Trump. Like spades and hearts. Except we couldn't speak and each group had a different set of rules on how the cards are ranked. Whoever won the game would then rotate clockwise and play with another team. The whole point of the game was to show transitioning into another job/department was like. Showed basically that you have to play along with other people even though you don't know what's goin on. Some rules are implied. Sometimes things are just how a dept does things and you just have to take it. Yea. Fun! :/
Then after that were was a panel and that was pretty interesting. That was the day. 45 min breakfast. 1:30 hr for lunch. 8-5 in the building. The day seriously could have been shorter. Seriously. Plus I had heals. And that was torture. Pure torture.
Ok so this post is basically venting cuz i feel like not good.
After the orientation I was sooooo flippin tired. Went to Midtown to prepare my route for the today. Then went home and rested my foot.
What was the advice that was given to us? Don't be late. I knew it would take 1 hour to get there so I wasn't worried. But for some reason I didn't want to wake up. Actually I know why. Cuz the orientation wasn't what I expected it to be. So today I didn't have high hopes for the first day of work. So I didn't really put much effort to getting out of the house. But soon enough time was running out and I had to jet. And fast. Next thing I know I'm there early. 8:40. I have to be there for 9. It's good I have time. So I decide to go get some tea and a donut. Take 10 minutes with that and get to the building. And to my horror. There was like 30 in a line. Waiting to check in through security. It took my like a half hour to get in. :((( I started sweating soo goddamn much. I hate being late. I really do. I think that made a huge impression. As soon as I got in the boss took me into a meeting and I stayed and looked in. Ugh. I already know I'm going to suffer through this lovely internship. First impressions suck.
Now I know I'm probably thinking way out of proportion but I seriously don't think I'll get a full time job. First impressions are everything. Fudge. Whole day boss was busy didn't really try to give me work. I flippin sat there. It sucks. It sucks so much. But its the first day. I need to make up for this bs. At least I got an intern behind me that might work out. I like his boss wayy better. He actually tries to help even though he's busy too. Every intern is in a team. So basically we're not working together. We're in a team with a bunch of professionals. I'm so intimidated. But just have to prove myself worthy. Or start looking for other jobs already hehe. Oh dear this isn't funny :D Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I really hope so.
OH. I bumped into people. One a member from a long time ago. He's working at Mount Sinai and volunteering at the UN. Pretty good stuff. I bumped into a girl from school walking near my job. It's so crazy how many times I bump into her at school and now at work. Super crazy. Also I saw a guy I had a crush on in highschool but didn't say anything then and didn't say anything now. So long ago. He looked good tho :)
Ok that's about it. I just wanted to vent. Getting to work late for the first day kinda ruined my life today. I exaggerate for effect :/